Questioning

     Do you ever find yourself questioning a decision you've made? Or do you ever question something before you make the decision? I definitely do...Oddly enough, I question the insignificant decisions even more than the important ones, especially when it comes to buying something. 
     For example, I am looking into buying a used play kitchen for the boys for Christmas.  They are at the perfect age because they love to play with kitchen stuff and they don't know that it's girly yet! So for the past two months I've been looking on eBay, Amazon and Craig's list trying to find the best deal.   My plan is to buy a used one because, face it, I have boys and they are going to tear up whatever I buy them. So why not find something for really cheap and that way you don't have to have a hissy fit when they stuff playdough down into the cracks and color on the top of it with a marker! My backup plan is this little one that I found at Walmart that is within my budget so I'm good if I don't find any online.
     However, I tend to question if buying a Christmas present in August is such a good idea.  What if I find an even better deal in October or December?  What if I settle for a decent one when a perfect one pops up right before Christmas?  Doubts, doubts, doubts.  I told Joseph that if I did decide on one then I would not allow myself to look on any of those websites again just so I wouldn't feel guilty if there was something else better out there.  Well, I went ahead and emailed a few of the sellers that I found a good deal with and now I'm waiting to see if they are still available.  Gulp! What if they are? Then I'll really have to make a decision! 
   All of these thoughts brought me to think a little more philosophical and made me wonder what big decisions that I doubt and worry about.  I've known people to play the dangerous "what if?" game and say that they're not sure if they want to get married because "what if" they walk into a bar and see the "man/woman of their dreams" yet they are tied down in a marriage! WOW! That is a pretty unpredictable way to live.  Not that I'm promoting just settling for what you can find, but if you are constantly looking for greener grass you will NEVER be fulfilled.  I think that God has a plan for each of us.  If we listen to Him, then we can live with that peace that He is watching over us and we don't have to doubt or regret our decisions.
   Pray about the big or little decisions that you are about to make and listen for that peace that God gives. Living with doubt, regret and fear means that you are focusing more on yourself and cannot do the things that God has for you to do to serve Him and those around you.